this is my life. =((

.Wednesday, May 31, 2006.

lol.. kay la, for today, ive been an angel! lol. i didnt sneak out! LOL..

morning, i was lik reaaaaaaaaaly sleepy. i woke up, and asked my parents, can i go out? dey said no, and i fell asleep until 12. LOL.. den, ya la. i begged dem to let me go on the phone. lol. and u noe me la. act so angel until dey allow. (hehhee.)
me n jamie we met at the mrt la. den i was late, cos dere was no key to open the door. until i found my precious key dat i lost looong ago. zzz. make jamie wait lol. in the mrt we went to talk with rach.. she cant go.. have to babysit her bros. haiz. met yushan n cheryl. yea :D. den saw yinglin chiobu! :P.. den saw renie (sp? lol.), joan and wenxin.. den we went to the resort together.. lol.. play bowling dere.. keep changing the names of the 5 ppl hu bowl.. very funny.. yinglin become oneh oneh! >_<.. lol jamie ahma/chiobu.. wx was shu nu.. sophisticated gal (sp?)den joan was bdae gal! lol.. :D.. gutter so many times. i udno how to bowl la. get 9 = tyco. lol. den joan went to mix all kinds of eergh.. disgusting chili soup. LOL. even add tissue inside leh! eew.. lol. after dat went arcade.. den played until like siao. lol. later we went to play the playground (childish hor.. LOL.. but very fun).. lol. even played catching.. aftr dat went to eat den went home lo.. >_<.. kekee.. i went back to ohana! yay! kekeke.
`cyn (in a good mood!! :D:D::D:D::D:D:D::D:D:D:D)

.Tuesday, May 30, 2006.

can u believe it?? im gona be CIP REP. siao!! sobsob.. joan n yinglin sabo.. :(
and the training camp totally SUCK. really.
ysterday was lik, me n jamie were bored to death in school!! zzz.. the only thing duno y made us laugh until stomach ache is dat time arzi pile up all the boxes and dropped them.. i tot y jamie was laughing den after dat we found out that great minds think alike- we thought of cinderella at that moment of time. lol? >_<.. we mean dat lil mouse piling up corn dat scene in cinderella.. so funny.. azri is like a joker. lol.. the rest was crap la. den games dat time we all cheat one. *sighh*
geez.. cooped up at home.. cant wait for tmr can go out. lol. creep out of house one. i ask permission my parents dont allow me go out. sob!! nd i got 41 in the whole level (reach my aim liao..) and my parents call me stupid. -.-" now dey dun allow me go out. zzz.. dey wan my marks all top5-10. siaozers. so tmr ar. set. im gona get out of this stupid house.
today cant get out of this house.. whole morning (and night) stuck on my computer. damn sian lo. pangya feel bored (played wif azri).. so-OUT. maple? boring la so-OUT. warcraft/dota.. boring like siao-out. clear up files..- really really; who can tolerate this boringness?- out. making weblayouts?- stuck at one stupid idiot code dat piss me off totally- so out. play songs on the computer?- out. photoshop?- out. gunbound?-BLEAH. boring. out. raycrash-out. downloading stuff- out. surf net- out. msn chat- out. EVERYTHING IN MY COMPUTER IS SO BORING!!! boring boring boring BORING!!!!!!!!
zzzz... now still stuck with that menu bar code.. in my head for so loong.. still cant find a way to solve it. zzz... blogging now.. after blogging i'll be bored to death again. without my computer- even more boring. see? im cooped at home with only computer i can do smth with. i checked the fridge for almost the 10th time today cos dere's nth else to DO!!!!.......

who can tolerate this boredness? TELL ME!!! (SOB!!!!!!!)

.Saturday, May 27, 2006.

maybe..

maybe..
maybe..
maybe.

ysterday (friday)
yea.. went to sch meet jamie.. den saw richny n yushan, den gerald. lol. den go it lab do finish our stuff.. after dat went parkway.. came back to sch very late :x..
bleah. the sci thingy was crap. lol. den go home wif the chain and ring thing. play like siao.. :X.. oh well. went home den go for dinner.. for the 1st time dis few months i saw my whole family (relatives and all).. ahling jiejie her bf very funny. lol.. eat prawn whole leh!! (hes a machine!!!).. den go home read campcraft notes until slept. lol.

today (saturday..)..
my dream was so sweet!!! i want it to happen in real life.. but i think wont one. haiiz.. den rushed to sch.. met huimin lol. den saw rach, yinglin and joan.. campcraft test was a killer!!!!!!! arg.. zzz..
my sisters call me a slut.. (SOB!!!!!!!!!!).. i oso duno y la. zzz.
my life is dis bad. sob sob sob.

all my fantasy exist in only.. my dream. my fantasy. my happiness. in my dreams.

.Thursday, May 25, 2006.

I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

maybe im right, maybe im wrong..
i dunoe.. maybe i chose the wrong road down.

jamie huiwen n yushan ponned today. oh well. maths was okay. it was GEOG the whole prob comes out. well... yea. mrs chen la. make me fall into this whole truble. SHE WAS DOING THIS STUPID PSYCHOLOGICAL TEST. DEN QN 3 I ANYHOW PUT FENDY'S NAME DEN FENDY READ MY PAPER REALLY TOT I LOVE HIM. WTH LA... now i fell into another big big biiiiiiiiiig hole again. just managed to clamber up of the 2nd BIG hole in my life den suddenly i feel into another.

now is. i really want to end dis fallin into holes problem.. i really envy so many ppl. huimin, yinglin, rach.. so lucky ppl!!! no probs to face, no traps to fall into, no dead ends to hit.

maybe it is just fate? maybe its always fate..? maybe its fate. just all fate.
maybe its fate i have to love him so much.
and is fate that i have to undergo through so many sufferings..

sorry. really very very very sorry. to everyone.

.Wednesday, May 24, 2006.

and can you believe it?
monday was.. so much different..
a single turn;;

~~tuesday~~
nt much about sch.. was the boring ol sch again. went to bukit chandu. not much really.
back in sch? had art and maths..
den back at home..
the nightmare just happened.
one sentence.
just one sentence.
i said only only one sentence.
and it all ended.
everything ended
all in a sentence.

ive gone insane.

~~wednesday (today..)~~
went to sch.. was a terrible choice.. shuld have ponned.
hes not around..
not there..
me?
cos of me..?
issit me?

i want to die..
he shuld have hated me. truely..
fendy threw his penknife away.. not like i want to make him angry or wad.. i think he hates me too..
everyone hates me..
i think even him hates me..
i noe my parents hate me.
i noe my sisters hate me.
i noe everyone.. hates me..

ive gone mad.

.Monday, May 22, 2006.

yay. alot to talk!! :D..
went to sch in sports shoes.. kinda werid cos lik; so werid la. den was like; keep on smsing jamie n rach in the morning of wad dey wearing so i wont be the odd one out. lol. den reach sch n saw.. rach!! lol. at least she can talk to me.. dunwan be the only one alone. lol. den after ransacking rach's bag and all.. saw jamie. ya. and her new phone. LOL.. den went down to assembly la. is like; we brought our bags down. lol.. den dm say go up again. lol. sian.. den gave the golden run card.. (my $6 fly away!!!.. ).. den we were like; late.. den i call fendy to ask mrs tan to let us go. den fendy was lik "MRS TAN!!" 7-10 times? lol.. she blur queen la. deaf de. lol.. we rushed out of the class :D.. inspected jamie's phone on the way down.. we went down den got bread n milo for breakfast.. den rach got us a nice camera. lol. den we were like; throwing all the leftovers in jamie. poor thing!!.. lol.. den went up the bus.. sat next to rach.. talked kinda alot den reach the changi jetty.. the whole sch was lik; walking blindly.. den suddenly we were lik lost lol. den mr anwazri found the stairs down.. lol. being the last is the best. lol. went up the boat first lo. lol. was like; looking at the sea for 10minutes.. den reach pulau ubin.. den waited for the rest and den walked around for a while. den after dat saw the tour guide. (forgot his name liao. i think hes kinda young ba. 18 yr old dere..) den followed him down the scenery trail.. feeding the mosquitoes!!!.. went to torture a spider (forgot to get a photo for the treasure hunt thing. sob) at the pandan dere.. den went down.. den tasted alot of plants. lol.. den after dat we walk down saw fendy's grp.. at the insect repellant plant. (pick alof of dat to ward of mosquitoes!!).. they lost? duno la. den mr anwari asked them join our team. lol. den walk down den saw fendy flirtin with the other sch the gals. lol.. natural joker sia. den walk down den the ant colony go attack me.. den i went to bury the ant hole. lol rachel too kind hearted already. den after dat went all round the place.. den saw some coffee tree.. took down a fruit n passed it round.. den yushan dropped the fruit n its; ta dah. full of sand. :(.. den used fendy as a cleaner ask him clean the coffee bean for us. lol. after dat we went to search for the treasure hunt stuff. lol.. den wlked round finding non/biodegradable stuff, feathers, mushrooms, twigs, leaves.. blah.. den was lik walking past some banana trees den the guy was lik telling us how dey have to put a nail on the bird nest fern.. bleah. u better not noe. lol. den after dat went to tthe mangrove dere and was lik; have to walk back. sad.. den was like, waiting for th other groups. den suddenly yushan was lik "can we go see the beach??" den mr anwari really go ask the ppl if can or not den can leh. den walked around smashing barnicle shells and poking the annemonies.. lol.. den went back la.. to the lil van. lol.. very fun leh sit in the van. mosquito free, aircon, nice picnic place.. den sommore make the other school groups envy us cos dey can walk we can sit. lol.. reach some mama beach place.. den we lik so many many many hornets.. de other group really go call them mama bees.. lol.. mr anwari dare to go walk past the bees leh!!!.. say dat he never actually saw the bees. sad. lol. aiya. dat beach is like crap de la. build a super high fence around the beach to prevent malaysians from coming in. spoil the whole beauty. den went to the second beach lo. same thing. boring.. only the part dat got tourists la.. de other group got dem 1st; den we gt to wait for them to to interview finish. lol.. played wif the sand. den was like; sob.. no tourists to interview. after dat was we went all round some places.. went to the quarry.. nice place la. den the other groups go interview a person; den found out he was a singaporean. malu demselves. lol.. den went back lo. to the jetty dere got alot of shops.. went around den finally got a place to sit n eat.. so many cats come and sit near me n stare at me eat leh!! so cute.. want to hug them.. lol.. den interviewed the aunty. she very kind. lol. after a while den felix fendy n jie chong came.. lol.. den fendy went to order food (our nice recommendation) den went to make a joke of himself. lol. he really went to intervire practically all the staff in that particular eating house. but true la. dis eating house the food very nice. must employ fendy go become their shop advertiser. took a photo (3 photos?) wif the aunty. lol.. den after eating (and seeing fendy eat) we all went back to the jetty.. den went back lo. lol. went back in a more "mordern" boat. it went so fast and almost capsized cos of the force. lol. scare us to death. den went back lo. ate jelly wobble!! lol. den went around.. c the ppl fro other class play the PLAYGROUND.. i think only our team is lik, sitting down doing nth. lol. den sat a lloooong while for the bus den finally went back. den went to jamie's house for sail task wif cheryl n yushan. lol. play lik hell. but we did quite alot too la. den oso after dat we were walking home (cheryl, me, yushan, rach) den got BIG rain! siao!!.. go home drenched leh. haiz. lol.
now im lik; trying to help blogskins.com la. crap those cheaters. lol.
tmr dunoe wazd to bring.. aiyo.
sob.

my life in a mess.
`cyn☆

.Saturday, May 20, 2006.

lol..

yasterday morning me n yinglin thinking of ponning np leh. lol.. den in the end its joan hu begged us back to going np. lol..
pe was funny.. did softball.. LOL.. when lingyi hit the ball den he was like defelct the ball back at gabriel.. den gabriel was like fell down leh.. jamie huimin n me was lik, wth? (think sick liao ba.).. lol really funny.. lucky is hit only his leg dere. den gabriel play again la den when ppl defleting the ball he faster will stood down and hide under his glove. lol.. so cute..
np was fun.. tkdo laugh lik hell. the instructor was the funny guy. lol.. he was like; if any colour wolf wan hit u u have to use tkdo wad.. wad is colour wolf??? den i ask yinglin den she say is se lang (pervo in chinese).. direct translation. lol so funny. his accent lik werid werid de.. lol.. den he wan us to shout la; den he was like saying "let the green men hear u!!".. green men? wad the hell was dat? den we realise that behind us was the ncc land ppl.. lol.. green men.. can say his thinking was really sick la. he talk and talk about defendin ppl den say if any colour wolf wan hit u u can one shot hit him and he will lik beg u to forgive him.. lol.. den he was also lik saying, "how can u differenciate boy n gals? hair cannt because gals can cut hair.. " den immediatly the whole squad was like LAUGHIN.. think sick liao la. lol..
den after tkdo was games!!! yay. played handball (wished it was loooonger.) den also played water bombs with the ncos.. lol.
den after dat was muster parade. stand dere for i think 10min only. sigh.. wished it was longer den no nid to do anything..
after dat was like behind technical block la. lol.. den sir was like, "hey; u ppl are the next campcraft team right? if u are in the campcraft team, u nid hand stregth right?" den we all say yes; den have to do 20 push ups. siao. den after dat was a round around tech block. den was jumping jacks. lol.. den later sir was like; "do u noe the reason y u ppl have to do all dis?" den we answer no. den he went to call back the sir hu made us undergo torture and he was lik,"i told u wad.. u all are the next campcraft team; u ppl have to train!!!" siao.. wad kind of reason was dat? we tot is lik we did smth wrong. later in june nid to go for TWO camps. atc and june camp. siao... nt enough rest den must go june camp liao. grr.
after dat went home le la. den went to tell my parents my level marks. den i tot dey will be happy la -.-.. den dey angry wif me and scold me. wad kind of parents are dey? den i was like angry wif my sister oso la. grr..
aiyo.. nth liao. i tried so hard in exams and no; my parents still hate me. sobs..

.Wednesday, May 17, 2006.

jamie; if she cut once; i'll cut once. cut until she's fed up of cutting.

must thank u for bringing her this far..
please make her see the light, god. at least; so that she could end her fear.
please god; help rachel.. she's ill and needs your comfort.. protect her and hope she get well.
please god; please help him2.. end the sorrow and forget the past..
please god; please also help him. help him to find someone he could truely love.
please god; please help him4.. protect him from any harm. and that protect him to not anyhow use my penknife and end up cutting himself.
please help them.. let them be together.
please him my mom.. let her see the light
please help my smaller sis.. protect her from my mom
please help my elder sister.. give her the guidiance to carry on drawing well so she could draw the nicest picture ever

please help me.. to help protect all those ppl near me.

in jesus name
amen.

.Tuesday, May 16, 2006.

OMG!!!!!

its freaking desastious these days.. yesterday

1. GOT back sci marks. which is; yea. good la. but guess wad??!!! tcher mark the paper wrongly and.. from 34 marks DROPDROPDROP to 31 marks.OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. got back blo0dy lit marks. yea yea. i failed. FAILED!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!! FAILED!!!!!!!..
3. music.. MY MUSIC MARKS!!! havent give out the papers yet. (scare ppl to death. lol..)
4. CE. CHANGE MY FREAKING PLACE TO FAR FAR FARRRRRRRR AWAY!!! NOO!!.. omg.. i was like; so happy i wouldnt need to sit at that side of the classroom. but when i walked to my place it was; OMG. FENDY??!! wa seh. dao mei tou. aiya. but having fendy behind me is not that bad ba. still got ppl to talk to besides gerald and soonhao..
5. freaking essay marks.. (anti-literature.. )
6. history marks: OMG... 60/100?!!!!!! @_@.. omg.omg.omg. so low!!! (my dream for hp is like; poof! no more. arG!!!!!!)
7. have to stay back. OMG.. maths section a marks: 30/50. wd..

today was worse? i think so. but i dun think so oso. :/
1. lit. was so hot cos wearing double layer. and chongster was; RAmblINg and raMbLing NONSTOP for a total of EXCATLY 30MIN!! HOW CAN I EVER SURVIVE IT?!!! i planning to sms ppl but didnt. lol. den use calculator pass lil messages to fendy.
2. PE.. omg i cant catch the freaking softball. but our group emerge as the winner! LOL. mr singh not dat bad la. hes fun at times. :D
3. maths. got back MATHS MARKS;; section A + b =.. 70marks??? wd? omg.. im dam lucky today. which is a gd thing :D.. section b got 40marks leh. so HAPPY!!
4. chinese; marks= 62. omg. wad LUCK.. anyways; im just happy i beat him.. and fendy beat me by 2 titty bitty marks. zzz..
5. english was another ramble talk n den marks time! 12.5/25. omg. den thanks to my summary i managed to borderline pass. LOL.. i noe im bad at english. SOB..
6. art. oh yea. got 80/100 for the everyday-work marks. dats good.. :D.. lol. and 87/100 for the exam marks. i was like; omg.. unbelieveable. realy!!.. i mean; look at mine la. it is like bious mark giving or smth. its not really DAT up to 87 marks. i think is she calculate wrong de la. stylised drawing= normal ppl like do 5-10 pieces of work.. ME? 1 piece. so siao. i duno why got 15/15 for that stylised drawing crap.
7. maths.: sail task. NOT AGAIN.. (moans.)
8. geog. lol i think geog is my best so far. guess how much? 75.5/100!!! yay!!! i think she'll add one more mark (SURE.) cos my marks count wrongly. kekeke.
9. go home.. eat and.. OMG.. my parents at home. sian.. SOB.. computer use oso cant play. SOB SOB SOB..

SOB!! why must my parents be at home?!!

.Sunday, May 14, 2006.

yasterday was bad.. i was like; half sleeping den my parents were lik; "wake UP! i want you to see the documentary about flu.." wdf la. i mean; FLU? dam it la. make me wake up for some lame flu documentary. i so hate it. den is lik my father was going to tear up my mangas if i dont get up to see the tv. so lame!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arg i hate my parents! and my father even hit me okay.. and it was so pain!!!
my family all hate me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im the only gal my parents PICK on.. and its like; living torture. arg!!!! dis time a double arrow go through my heart!!! very pain!!!!! my heart aches..

anyone saw the last episode of the xian jian qi xia quan? really very touching.. sobs.. why must everyone die in the end???? its such a nice story.. such a beautiful story..

what is love? and what excatly is love?

.Friday, May 12, 2006.

i think i offended so many ppl
hurt so many ppl..

back to where i am now.
may the angels bring me to light..
never again see the darkness in me.

the end.
i close down my blog.. for the time being.
dont stalk me anymore.

everything is just a fairytale.

oh well. u noe.. if i didnt tell u my blog address; why u ppl actually bothered to dig into other ppl's blog and get my address? if i didnt give u my blog address means that my blog is not for u too read, you noe??!!! its lik; my blog is to keep secret and in the end is like; leaked out and everyone in the world noes that i changed my blog. sian lo.. if i didnt personally told u my blog address, means i didnt want you so see my blog or read it. maybe sometime in june i'll have to change my blog again. this time leaving NO trace. its like so hard to keep my blog a secret from u ppl. and its irritating.

WHY YOU PEOPLE HAVE TO LOOK AT MY BLOG AND READ IT EVERY SINGLE DAY WHEN MY LIFES ALREADY TOTALLY IN A MESS?!!! ITS WORTHLESS TO READ IT.. unless you ppl are sadists. okay? so if; i didnt go up to u and told u dat i have a new blog; DONT u dare come read my personal feelings. the end.

IM SO TIRED OF LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.Thursday, May 11, 2006.

oh well. i missed talking about wad happen ysterday.

after chinese everyone was hoping in joy. lol. after day we (all the 2C gals and yea; richny) went to kallang mac.. and well.. everything started; and i regretted even smsing him!! aaa!!!.. den went jamie's house la. played with her kitty.. so CUTE!!!.. den went to see a movie.. (siickkk.. -.-).. cos got alot interuption from jamie's mom and grandma. interuption we were lik; "do u wan go upstiar n c the movie instead?" lol.. ate lunch at jamie dere.. den after the movie sian den went out and play net-basket(?) ball wif rach me jamie n yushan.. den went back den went to ransack jamie's room. lol. den went home cos dere was nth else to do.. walked home in guilt.. haiz.. den went home cheered wif my dad n my smaller sis.. our exams are finnally OVER! YES!.. den watched tv all the way.. and chat all the way oso la. just hearing his tone on msn i really want to kill him.. cant he see dat i love him?!!!!... my heart aches..
morning i woke up at 11AM.. LOL.. slept 14hours striaght!!.. axtually can go up to 16hours de.. stupid construction workers la.. chao de yao ming;;.. cos my maid's the wall BROKE a hole (omg..) so the ppl have to come fix it. haiz..
den played pang n maple lo.. nothin much to do.. den watched tv in a daze.. (oh; sorry jamie!! cant go for the movi cos my mom dun allow).. haiz.. fendy suddenly said that i changed into someone bad already. den i told him wad happened ysterday lo. and he told me to.. bring myself back into hell? NO!!! fendy i cant believe it; why are you doing this to me!!! T.T............

sorry!!!!!!!!
im really very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very sorry!!!...... verry sorrry..
i cant do anything else but to say sorry..

cos you're not the one who can hit the arrow right through my heart.
sorry.

.Wednesday, May 10, 2006.

let my soul free.
please.

let me forget both of them.
help to to forget them.

and well..
he feel guilty.
and im feeling guilty too.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and.. he..
giving me troubles.
hopeless guy.
i want to forget him too.
although
although he may mean something to me

i still want to forget him

i want to forget everyone

and once and for all

end everything.
end all the suffering
end my suffering
end his suffering
and
end his suffering too. (if he actually had the heart to feel.)

god; did you see that?
its life.

oh yea; my mom dug up an old picture from her company table. guess where am i? kekeke..

i want to be free. like last time. that time. whn i was just a lil kid.

exams is over..

im not happy?
no. im not.
im not happy at all. im not happy. im really not hapy..

im very sorry.. very sorry..
i just dont want to hurt you any longer..
sorry..

sorry..

please protect him; god.

.Tuesday, May 09, 2006.

stressed...

argh.. today got lit..
yesterday borrow from jasmine the pen the ink so full de.. den after to day like 3 cm GONE;; NOOOOOO.....
den somre ysterday the pen 4cm all ink no more liao. no pen liao. die tmr liao. jasmine toook her black pen away. sian.. no pen tmr............

chinese.

is.

going.

to.

kill.

me!!

kekeke.... lit today sure fail.... sigh..
i never like talk about abel..
haiz...
oh wait. YAY. julien got me a blue pen.yay..... tmr wont fail liao. ^^............
chinese leh tmr. sigh.
i duno wad to study tmr somemore. SIAN... i mean; now the sylabus change already? sigh;;...
tmr maybe after sch may walk around.. sian. /:
im rich!!! lol. jas gave me the money she owe me. and im "rich" now. not excatly rich la. not until 20dollars..

yesterday heard the gossips about me.. haiz..
as i said;
如果我没害你。。。为什么你们都要这样对待我？？？
一个人。。如果没害人。。为什么人们会害她？
为了什么?

`cyn

.Monday, May 08, 2006.

2 more exams left!..
im breathless... i wana just.. rest.

so many things stressing me out.
1. EXAMS X___X
2. him. and him. and some werid mysterious guy fendy telling me about.
3. $$$.. today buy tie all my money fly away le la. idiot DM. i hate her.
4. im SUPER STRESSED!!!! and the slight fever is killing me. ARGG...........
5. still got a pile of manga to read finish and return to my friends.. tsubasa so nice!! :P... azri lend me chrno crusade.. he very sweet (:.. fruits basket rawk.. haiz... MAR read up to vol 9 liao. so many manga to read.. >.<.....>>
6. lit tmr. gona be the death of me. STRESS la!!! my marks is lik 50-55 for CA.. if i dont buck up; i may die. SIAN.
7. i worry for ma'am leh. i borrow her calculator.. returned it today in her class.. den is like; i cant find her den put on her friend's table. i HOPE no one takes it away. and dat her friend can return to her by tmr, she got A maths.. oh yea. pray to god she do well in her A maths.
8. pray that 2C lit exam can do well. :) jiayou 2C!!!
9. lack of sleep.
10. got hit again.. such a.. VIOLENT family. i cant stand it.
11. read manga and got scolded. idiot la. its my life;;.. haiz..
12. MY HOUSE BECAME SOME WERID NOISE MAKING TOY. my sis; yea. on the living room player (and its 5.1; it BOOMS the house.) and play some japanese songs. sian. i use my computer go compete with her. my mom scold me say my songs very noisy and my sis songs very nice to hear. SIAO... noisy so wad; very nice to hear to me can le lo. sian.......
13. mosquito bites. PAIN!~~
14. ulcer. kills me. so pain!
15. my brain want to baozha liao. high level of stress
16. MY SISTER HER STUPID SONGS ARE BREAKING MY SONG WAVES. GRRR..
17. i think ive changed. cos of stress ba. **siGH** im not usually like dis. only when im super stressed.. its like; dis was the 1st time i actualy feel so stressed this year. haiz..
18. slaters jordans slaters jordans.. [gone insane on lit..]........
19. HOW can i ever survive with only 5 bucks dis week.??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i better get the $4 quick from my sis. she owe me..

20.

STRESSED!

`cyn. :(

.Sunday, May 07, 2006.

tmr is history exam........... sobs.

just now went to my grandmother's house. my relavtives.. urgg... dey bullies la. i hate them. and thus; i came home with 7 mosquito bites. im saying the truth lo. 7 leh. zzzzz.. itchy..
mybe i shuldnt tell him in the 1st place.. im hurting him.. haiz..

oh; and tmr is history. SIGHHH.. *control 3 more days!!!--- den play!!*
kekeke. :)

i really really damn hate..

EXAMS!!

.Friday, May 05, 2006.

bleahhhhhh...... so tiried and stressed..
maths paper was; omg....... dam it; its really hard.

morning was lik wake up den see clock den i tot ists 6.45. SIAO!! i faster rushed out lik siao den took a bath. den come back to the room whn the light is on; its 6am nia. lame lo me. lol. den after dat came to class so eaarly.. (not early; but is earlier den joan n yinglin. yinglin got stuck on highway; joan late..) den im the only one in class leh! den ivan come saw me doing nth (and he was CHANGED; den he tell me faster change if not late.. ) joan came in 30sec later. den yinglin.. den cos we too late we asked tim to close the windows and lock de door and guard.. sian la. den mel come curse us. -.- den after lik 5min we rushed down to assembly plaza like siao; ivan was shocked dat we change so fast. lol. den in the 10min we stand dere i suddenly remember i never bring calculator! den went to ask maam peizen to borrow. LOL.. den ya la; borrow, den go class. HENG yushan got bring extra curcve ruler. she's my saviour!!.. den after dat was morning assembly.. found $4 in my np pocket.. i think i threw it last time into the washing machine without taking my money out.. lol im rich! but $4 only la. how i wished it was $50. aiya. den was maths paper la. paper1= dam hard. and guess wad; everyone said it was east. SIAO!!!... den paper 2 was; of course la; HARDER. SURE FAIL LE LA. after all the exams nid to return maam the calculator.. sighh. den went rach's house play with andrew :P.. den went back to sch.. cant find maam.. zzzzz.. den go home lo.. i using all my time now to destress. too stress already......... i intend to sleep now..

oh well. goodnite!! :P
later den i wake up :)

.Thursday, May 04, 2006.

ysterday was chinese n sci. hard!!!!!!!! haiz.
after dat we studied at rach's house.. played with andrew (so cute).. den after dat study a while den play computer.. lol. after dat after photocopying notes we went home lo. home was ultimate hell. im suffering form so many injust. i hate my family. i hate them.

today was geog. sian la. zzzzzzz.. den rach n jamie tell me wrong geog facts. sure die liao. haiz.

life sucks.

ESP.
with exams.
and we're all killing trees just for one STACK of exam papers!!! TREES. geog!! rmbr?!!!

.Tuesday, May 02, 2006.

EXAMS

bleah. i still got time go make new blogskin and sleep somemore. LOL.

english paper was so-so la. but i noe i sure fail de. haiz..

tmr: chinese and SCIENCE.
DEATH OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1